Posted by Maria79 on April 22, 2008 at 22:36:31:

Hi everyone, I am pretty new on this site. I "found" it about 2 weeks ago and have been trying to work up the nerve to post. I hate the thought of someone judging me that it holds me back a lot. Anyway, my name is Maria and I am a 28 year old who has been dealing with panic and anxiety for almost 11 years. I like the idea that I can be safe at home, but also feel connected to others in the world.
Lately, I have been feeling sad and guilty that my panic attacks (and overall apprehension of just doing everyday things) because I feel that it is keeping my son from his life. I know that at 5 years old he doesn't have that much going on, but I just want so badly to be able to take him to get ice cream or anything without having to bring someone with us. I am just tired of this and tired of feeling that this perpetual cycle of ups and downs will never end. I just want to know why this is happening? Why is it that no matter how hard I try, no matter how much therapy, and no matter how much medication, I am not better?

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• Re: Searching For The Answers.......... 11:39:26 04/24/2008 Maria79 (2)
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• Embrace it? 10:54:12 04/24/2008 Pat at ENcourage (0)
• Hi Maria - 11:04:02 04/23/2008 firedancer (0)
• Hi Maria. 06:29:37 04/23/2008 Kate_1 (0)