 STRESS,STRESS AND MORE STRESS!
Posted by chrissy on March 26, 2008 at 16:33:10: Stress about my current situation...(divorce) Stress about being stressed... And Stressed about the ANXIETY as a result of the stress. See the pattern... My body plays tricks on me when I am in this place. Today I have had everything from "chest pains"(heart attack) God I hate this disorder so much and feel so "crippled" lately by those awful "what ifs" I can go days even weeks if I am lucky without "Thinking" about my physical health and BAM from nowhere I get a sensation, a pain, a "funny feeling" and the Hypochondrea is back with avengance. Hypochondrea is the "root" of all my anxiety and although I did learn through CBT how to "converse" with myself when these thoughts "attack" Repeating to myself over and over...."let it go" Chrissy, stop trying to control something you have no control over, if you have a heart attack there is nothing you can do to stop it. I have always panicked around ANYTHING to do with illness ( my upbringing 2 parents who were obsessed with illness and death) So I tell myself its no wonder you think like you do,my mum, even now after I set boundries long ago STILL tries to tell me gory details of people she knows who are sick, its not denial on my part its a need to survive...... When I was a little girl I would lie alone in bed and cry so hard because I was soooo afraid to die, so afraid of illness and here I am 40 yrs later and not much has changed its so frustrating. I am so dam sick of being afraid!!! Sorry ladies/gents just had to let this out. Chrissy. xox
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