ENcourage Connection

I have to say I think I'm doing okay so far, despite a few little "meltdowns" that were caused by just *very* high anxiety. Taking breaks has been really, really necessary, like going someplace where I can sit out in the grass in the sunshine, or doing some creative work which is and has always saved me, grounded me.

A friend is arriving today and will stay until next weekend, helping me through the move... this is saving me too, because it's not just about packing, it's about acclimating to a place that is unfamiliar and out of my "zone"... the agoraphobia will be tested, but I have some kind of faith that if I weren't ready for it, I wouldn't be doing it. Easy? No. But here I go.

This place already is a mess with boxes and stuff waiting to be packed, and as it starts to look more and more sparse, the anxiety might go up. I'll just breathe through it and accept it because I know that's just what happens and I get through it every time.

I'm scared though. It's uncomfortable... but discomfort doesn't kill us. But I can't wait to just be there and be settled already.

Thanks for reading if you did. I might not be able to respond right away because, well, I'm moving, lol.

Please wish me luck. :)

Robyn

• Thank you.... 09:29:22 09/30/2009 Why (0)
• If you are feeling too angsty - try to film the rides to and fro - or make a photo montage. Have I told you lately that I'm über proud of you? (n/t) 06:51:15 09/30/2009 Kate_1 (0)
• Feeling such pride in you... 22:18:33 09/28/2009 Pat at ENcourage (0)
• Truly Believe when I say, "My Thoughts are With you Robyn". Spending you my spiritual support. (n/t) 17:55:29 09/28/2009 Debbie IN California (0)

In Reply to: A few days before moving.... posted by Why on September 28, 2009 at 08:54:16:

Thank you...

Debbie... I appreciate any positive energy, thank you :)

Pat... aw... thank you... you can be proud if I make it through this in one piece :)

Kate... aw, thank you too... and cool idea about taking photos. I'm the driver though and will need to breathe and concentrate on the road all the way there, so probably no photos unless I stop somewhere. I'll have my camera with me though. It's one of the ways I cope with the anxiety, if I feel anxious I take out the camera and focus on what's around me, and it helps so much.

I'm just on here a bit while my friend is getting ready so we can go out and get more boxes, then come back and keep packing.

Today is the last day of packing. Tonight the computer will be unplugged, no more internet (yikes, lol). Tomorrow, well... you know... the move.

Aside from the anxiety, I'm feeling pretty sick and also so exhausted from not sleeping enough, but as long as I'm not dead I guess I can do this, lol.

I'm scared but I'm doing it, I have help and it's happening.

It felt so comforting to come on here today and see your messages. Thank you for this. I'll post from the new place as soon as I'm there and get the computer set up.

Thank you again.

Robyn

In Reply to: A few days before moving.... posted by Why on September 28, 2009 at 08:54:16:

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In Reply to: A few days before moving.... posted by Why on September 28, 2009 at 08:54:16:

And I'm really looking forward to hearing all your reports upcoming. :) I know it's a challenge, and you are going to do great despite it all.

Hugs,
Pat

In Reply to: A few days before moving.... posted by Why on September 28, 2009 at 08:54:16:

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