Posted by samantha K on May 09, 2007 at 18:39:20:

Hi Everyone,

I have been suffereing from Panic attacks since I was 15 (am 23 now.) After my first round of panic attacks I ended up on paxil for 4 years. After I got off the paxil for the next 3-4 years I had relatively no panic or depression and no meds, I was doing well. About a year ago I started having severe attacks again, leading to throwing up, insane obsessive thoughts, depression and ultimately meds again. I just got off the meds yet again and have been free of them for about a month and a half. A few weeks ago I started having bad anxiety again, throwing up and etc. Alot of people say it is still withdrawl but some of the sites out there make you feel like you will be in that state for possibly years and that I simply cannot accept. I need more encouragement that I can start living my life again< I still work live my life, although with much difficulty because I have again developed severe depression that comes and goes and effects of depersonalization/derealization which come and go as well depending on how distracted I am. By I don't want to reliant upon only feeling somewhat okay if I'm distracted. I need to be okay by myself as well. I wake up every morning anxious and nausous but I think I am starting to get better at dealing with those feelings but these creepy thoughts in my head of things not being real and nothing mattering and this disconection keep getting at me. I know I should jsut not think about it but I am sure you guys know how difficult that is. Anyways I just wanted to talk to some people who hopefully have good experiences because on the withdrawl forums everyone is in hell and no one really makes you feel like you can get out of it anytime relatively soon....

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Posted by CandyGirl on May 13, 2007 at 19:08:59:

In Reply to: New Here posted by samantha K on May 09, 2007 at 18:39:20:

Just wanted to say Hi and welcome you! I definetly understand you on the depersonalization/derealization. I dont know about you but it makes me feel crazy though I know Im not, I think? HaHa I also understand when you say you should just not think about, that is definetly easy said then done so dont get down on yourself about that! Anyway take care of yourself and let me know how your doing!

Candace=)

Posted by NavajoQT on May 11, 2007 at 16:04:04:

In Reply to: New Here posted by samantha K on May 09, 2007 at 18:39:20:

there's lots of people here! You'll get the best support! Talking helps to validate your feelings for yourself. It's a place to let go and jus be. There will be good days, bad days, really bad days and even BETTER days!! Gotta live one day at a time, be in the present, can't do anything about the past and tomorrow hasn't come.

"TODAY is the TOMORROW you worried about YESTERDAY"

Posted by Anna Banana on May 11, 2007 at 03:13:03:

In Reply to: New Here posted by samantha K on May 09, 2007 at 18:39:20:

Yes, we all know how those obsessive thoughts are. In my case what helps me most is to be informed about it. I mean, to read information about the disorder, so that when the thoughts come I know what they are, and they aren't as scary.
Also, journaling works very well for me too. Putting worries and thoughts into paper makes them more "standable" in a way.

I hope you find good help here, and start feeling better soon. It does get better with time :-)

Posted by Debra on May 09, 2007 at 19:43:44:

In Reply to: New Here posted by samantha K on May 09, 2007 at 18:39:20:

Hello Samantha K, This is a great forum to talk amongst those with similar issues. I encounter some anxious problems, but not quite as severe as others...but, I feel for you! I hope you get some good advice.